I feel in it my soul...
Mar. 20th, 2014 08:46 pmI am not sure if I have the words for this, but I need to try.
I caught up with my friend V after work today. During the course of the discussion, she asked whether I was angry about my back and how it was preventing me from dancing.
I'm not. In fact I feel very calm about the whole thing, something V commented on. On my way home I was thinking about it and I realised something. Since Gallifrey One I have been pretty damn calm and cheerful in general.
Something has changed, shifted. I'm not sure what it is but I feel... Settled. Connected. Happy.
I'm not saying that I don't have the occaisional down day, everyone does. But even when I was in pain last week, I wasn't miserable. Maybe a little annoyed that I had to take time of week but I was still cheerful and happy reading my books, doing my cross stitch and watching whatever caught my fancy to pass the time. I might be getting a little twitchy physically without dancing, but mentally it doesn't appear to be affecting me much outside of mild frustration on occaision.
I'm not sure what it is, but I can trace it back to Gallifrey. There is more often a smile on my lips, a twinkle in my eye.
For example, before Gallifrey, I may have written a blog post about Lady Jane Grey, but I don't think I would have been brave enough to submit it to the Cranky Ladies Blog Tour.
Even sick as a dog, lying on the bathroom floor in my hotel room in the middle of the night in Hawai'i - I was fine.
Whatever has happened to me, I'm certain it comes down to Gallifrey One and the people I met there. So...
Lewis. Nancy. Lela. Terri. Kat. Giles. Mick. Nat. Deb. Erica. Liz. Chris. Steven. Eric. Nick. Paul. Daphne. Katy. Michelle. Andre. Anyone else who has slipped my mind.
Thank you. Thank you so much. I'm glad I met you. You've changed me for the better.
I'll see you soon.
Alright, enough self reflection and sappiness for now... ;)
I caught up with my friend V after work today. During the course of the discussion, she asked whether I was angry about my back and how it was preventing me from dancing.
I'm not. In fact I feel very calm about the whole thing, something V commented on. On my way home I was thinking about it and I realised something. Since Gallifrey One I have been pretty damn calm and cheerful in general.
Something has changed, shifted. I'm not sure what it is but I feel... Settled. Connected. Happy.
I'm not saying that I don't have the occaisional down day, everyone does. But even when I was in pain last week, I wasn't miserable. Maybe a little annoyed that I had to take time of week but I was still cheerful and happy reading my books, doing my cross stitch and watching whatever caught my fancy to pass the time. I might be getting a little twitchy physically without dancing, but mentally it doesn't appear to be affecting me much outside of mild frustration on occaision.
I'm not sure what it is, but I can trace it back to Gallifrey. There is more often a smile on my lips, a twinkle in my eye.
For example, before Gallifrey, I may have written a blog post about Lady Jane Grey, but I don't think I would have been brave enough to submit it to the Cranky Ladies Blog Tour.
Even sick as a dog, lying on the bathroom floor in my hotel room in the middle of the night in Hawai'i - I was fine.
Whatever has happened to me, I'm certain it comes down to Gallifrey One and the people I met there. So...
Lewis. Nancy. Lela. Terri. Kat. Giles. Mick. Nat. Deb. Erica. Liz. Chris. Steven. Eric. Nick. Paul. Daphne. Katy. Michelle. Andre. Anyone else who has slipped my mind.
Thank you. Thank you so much. I'm glad I met you. You've changed me for the better.
I'll see you soon.
Alright, enough self reflection and sappiness for now... ;)